Ok you might say, no, you found yourself a job; You sent your own resume; You did your own interview.
Yes yes, but God has opened doors for me and without God I would have collapsed by then.
I was studying at some state away from my hometown. Last year July, I went back to my hometown and got a job for my internship. I liked the job, really, but it wasn't a place for me to stay. Let me tell the story. The job was fun and the people were all nice. My internship ended at the end of the year so I continued to work there to finish a project of mine. The project had been draggy and bla bla and time flew and ZOOM it was August. I'd been looking for jobs but not seriously but deep in my heart I knew I need to get another job to grow.
I think the problems are all me. I wasn't happy working there and I felt like I couldn't learn much. The job scope might affect a little bit but I think mostly it was my mindset. I was so unhappy and at one point I almost went to a doctor (because I think I have depression). But then things better.
Things got better actually after a Sunday service. I was so depressed (or sad, or feeling down, I don't know what's word to use) and I was the worship leader. I felt so difficult to sing. I told God I couldn't sing about freedom (it was a fast song and it mentioned freedom) and I asked God "How am I going to praise You like this? I have no joy or freedom at all." and I told my congregation. I told them I found it so hard to sing, but I would sing. After the service one of my pastors talked to me. She also told me my mom was really worried because I told her I wanted to see a doctor.
You might think I over-reacted. I was that serious (I think) that I always cried in the office or on buses. It was like I couldn't control myself. But I didn't come to the point that I wanted to end my life. I just felt really suffered. I kept asking God when would it end.
Then one day I changed how I prayed. I told myself I'd declare God's goodness and greatness instead of being sorrowful and I'll trust Him. Well I didn't just BAM and got all better. I slowly recovered. Thank God.
During August something happened and it kinda forced me to look for another job. Within two months I found a job in Singapore. People kept telling me it was difficult to find a job and working in this field (IT) I'd have lots of OT and no life but those don't apply on me. My colleagues are all nice and I get to learn a lot in my job (I've been working for 2 months+). Also at that time, Singapore was limiting the working passes released to foreigners. There are 3 classes of passes and I got the 1st one. My pay was enough and good (enough is good!). The company policies on staff benefits are great. They don't sabotage the workers but they really take care of us. God also helped me to find a room in a very short period. Thank God!
Now I'm asking God what does He want me to learn here and what can I do for Him. I'm expecting more great things from God.
I'll share on how God opened doors for my new job in detailed next time. Anyway, praise be unto God! He is awesome! :)
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