Discard the emotional junks

You number my wanderings;
Put my tears into Your bottle;
Are they not in Your book?
(Psalm 56: 8, NKJV)

I have been emotional lately. But I don't want to bring forward these emotional junks ahead.

I also told God that from now on, I'll surrender my heart and mind to Him. I haven't been doing that very well. I have to say, lots of times my own stubbornness brought me to bad endings. Bad, bad endings. And times like those I'd tell God "I should have listened to You!". Anyway, God is good. I don't mind that people don't understand that. They might laughed at me but I don't care. I just want God to fix me. Restore me and all my brokenness inside.

I wouldn't know what to do without You, God. Thank You. I want to do this well from now on. I do not deserve any chance but You offer me love, grace and mercy everytime. I don't wanna take them for granted so please help me to respond to You and may my life be acceptable unto You.

And in the right time, I know You will bring blessings to me accordingly.

This is very difficult for me, and I feel very weak, but please help me to be bold. And when that day I'm able to stand up and declare Your works on me, I will rejoice because I will see how great and awesome are Your works and plans despite my own self that stood between.

Praise God! :)