You know better than I

It's been about two years since I first thought of getting a new job. Along the way there were disappointment, moulding, pruning; when I went for interviews and couldn't get any job, there were doubts, fears, and things that consumed my confidence.

But praise God! I believe that God is guiding and leading me. I have zero idea why I am here, but I believe that His timing is perfect. I will praise God. I will praise God when I don't understand.

There were times that I felt like I was so close to giving up. And people would tell me: you should just stay here. Sometimes I fear that I might not be able to face what's going to come. I worry that I don't have what it takes.

But I refused to give in. Doesn't matter where it is, I want to have the spirit of excellence. I want to glorify God at where I am. I believe He places me at where I am for a purpose. For Your glory, God. And teach my heart to sing "I've let go the need to know why / I'll take what answers You supply / You know better than I". Indeed, God, You know better than I.

“But you, Israel, are My servant,
Jacob whom I have chosen,
The descendants of Abraham My friend.
You whom I have taken from the ends of the earth,
And called from its farthest regions,
And said to you,
‘You are My servant,
I have chosen you and have not cast you away:
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
(Isaiah 41:8-10)

You know better than I (from "Joseph King of Dreams")

I thought I did what's right

I thought I had the answers 

I thought I chose the surest road 

But that road brought me here 

So I put up a fight 

And told You how to help me 

Now just when I have given up 

The truth is coming clear 

You know better than I 

You know the way 

I've let go the need to know why 

For You know better than I 

If this has been a test 

I cannot see the reason 

But maybe knowing I don't know 

Is part of getting through 

I try to do what's best 

And faith has made it easy 

To see the best thing I can do 

Is put my trust in You 

For You know better than I 

You know the way 

I've let go the need to know why 

For You know better than I 

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky 

I saw a bird and thought that I could follow 

But it was You who taught that bird to fly 

If I let You reach me will You teach me 

For You know better than I 

You know the way 

I've let go the need to know why 

I'll take what answers You supply 

You know better than I