It's been about two years since I first thought of getting a new job. Along the way there were disappointment, moulding, pruning; when I went for interviews and couldn't get any job, there were doubts, fears, and things that consumed my confidence.
But praise God! I believe that God is guiding and leading me. I have zero idea why I am here, but I believe that His timing is perfect. I will praise God. I will praise God when I don't understand.
There were times that I felt like I was so close to giving up. And people would tell me: you should just stay here. Sometimes I fear that I might not be able to face what's going to come. I worry that I don't have what it takes.
But I refused to give in. Doesn't matter where it is, I want to have the spirit of excellence. I want to glorify God at where I am. I believe He places me at where I am for a purpose. For Your glory, God. And teach my heart to sing "I've let go the need to know why / I'll take what answers You supply / You know better than I". Indeed, God, You know better than I.
“But you, Israel, are My servant,
Jacob whom I have chosen,
The descendants of Abraham My friend.
You whom I have taken from the ends of the earth,
And called from its farthest regions,
And said to you,
‘You are My servant,
I have chosen you and have not cast you away:
Fear not, for I am with you;
Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
(Isaiah 41:8-10)
You know better than I (from "Joseph King of Dreams")
I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear
You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For You know better than I
If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through
I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in You
For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For You know better than I
I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught that bird to fly
If I let You reach me will You teach me
For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers You supply
You know better than I