...because for the past few months I've been feeling shitty!
Okay not really. Not that bad. But I really want a fresh and cool August ahead, like you know, when you haven't been washing your hair for three days and finally you can take a shower and you'd use so much shampoo and make foam castle on your head. That's how I want my August to be.
It's been sucky because I fell out with a close friend of mine. It's like we can't even talk anymore. It makes me really sad. It gives me mood roller-coasters and I FRIGGING HATE roller coasters I tell you! Anyway I have decided to put that aside because being emotional doesn't help. And I get emotional easily. So yea maybe I should just cool down and shut up. I feel that it's the best thing to do for now.
Okay what else... hmm I had my mid-year appraisal. That's something new. And I had some useful advice from my boss. Well the part he mentioned about what I should be improving -- I couldn't say I disagree. Mostly about time/project/people management. I just feel like I need to discipline myself and make everything I do more efficient. Also, being inefficient makes me feel like a failure, but I'm also the procrastination queen. I am writing this post only because I took a day off due to this sore throat and cough I have. It's not really really bad but I think I should just rest and let myself recover and not spread the virus around. My office is tiny, close room so poor air circulation equals to virus spreading like mad.
I feel that there are so many things I need to do and I don't know where to start or how and I just keep feeling like I'm running out of time. Am I sick?
I always think I should write more. Not like I have lots of readers following my blog, I just feel that it's nice to have some sort of discipline in writing. And then to clean up my room because it's super messy. Those are the small things which don't really matter too much (yet they affect my mood).
The big things are like my work, career, dreams, and so on. I want to be super efficient at work. I want to close my projects and have minimum bugs. I want to build my career (oh by the way I decided to develop my career path in software development! Will talk about this later) and I don't know if I'm heading to the right direction -- so do I continue to work here or do I start considering to get a new job? Yep I know I need to pray about it.
I also want to update on what's happening but I should keep that for the next post. Anyway good news is I found some photos from Brisbane which I shared and it kinda stay in the album since then (yay!).
(In the photo above is the medal I get from joining Garfield Run! -- well 3 km fun run but it's considered great for me).
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